You say don’t say or even think things

but then YOU say things that make me think things

Unintentional teasing is not the most delicious torture ever

SEEMINGLY unintentional teasing is…

 

so I’m pretending that you HAVE to know

what you are doing to me

 

Unable to always CONTROL
my thoughts or feelings

I’m managing my actions
so you’ll just have to

be happy (deprived) with that

Maybe BECAUSE certain experiences are taboo

under your guidelines…

 

I’m catching myself

drinking YOU in with my eyes

Silently gasping at a flicker of flesh

my mind playing vivid movies of what

I could be doing to you from this angle

with you in the exact POSITION that

you’re in now

…ughhhh

 

YOUR body so casual and close

but feeling like an overdose

 

Attempting to reign in my thoughts

and being successful

for moments at a time

 

I can’t help loving the consolation prizes my mind

provides itself in commiseration

with my FLESH for the gifts it can’t give you

 

prizes SO graphic and specific
that I know exactly

how far my fingers would
reach around and down

if my hungry palms PERFECTLY cupped the exposed

sections of your sides just above your hips…

from behind

…grrrr

 

FOR me just the thoughts will have to do

is it my imagination or can you see us too?

Tasting you so fully with all of MY senses

except the most delicious aspect

of taste which is TOUCH.

 

OBVIOUSLY,

 

touch is what I’m CRAVING so much

even as I control the urge

 

tingling MY hairs stand up

but instead of goose bumps

my arms and neck are textured by

tiny

little

throbbing

clits

 

…fffuuuuu

 

Keeping things proper,

my face calm, voice light.

My LUST hidden

Saved up FOR later tonight

 

Life is for PLEASURE even if I

have to pleasure myself

 

AND like a ride is more exciting

with both peaks and valleys

 

now I’m thinking of your peaks and valleys

…shhht

 

and of riding

*sigh*

 

PASSION for anyone or anything

is exciting even if unrequited

and makes life more fascinating

 

I thank Unis FOR what I do get…

the things that are real

as well as the visions that are not (yet)

 

I find LIFE. pleasing when I am with you

as I have from the start

 

from a platonic overnight STAY,

to a conversation by phone or by text

I enjoy it all even realizing that NOTHING could be next

 

Knowing not if we will EVER talk again.

This all COULD be over, come to an end

finished between the rising of the sun

and the setting of the moon.

Whenever it is over will feel much too soon

 

So for now I’m letting it BE

 

enjoying the tidbits I get

never pushing unless prompted to

 

Probably BETTER for you

 

That I keep MY hands to myself

and just enjoy the gorgeous view

 

from the FRIEND. zone

~KiDDṏ