Hidden Messages – Not That Anyone Asked Me…

Laying on my bed watching the delicious heavy rain’s got me thinking about how the 1st thing you do when you snuggle up against them is kiss the back of their neck

you just do

if there’s long wavy hair in the way you bury your face into the lightly scented depths until your lips meet their nape

then you apply one firm smooch to the base

then a very gentle light-as-a-breath one a little higher up

as you firmly but fleetingly press your pelvis forward into the ripeness of their warm cheeks

and you tighten then slightly release your arms

Unless you’re snuggling a friend

(Which means that you refrain from pressing your pelvis into their cheeks after the neck kisses of course)

then you just lay there snuggled up and experience the rain together

~KiDDṏ

So many delicious days & nights of perfect snuggle weather.

“And if you can’t be with the one you love honey
snug the one you’re with, snug the one you’re with,
snug the one you’re with, snug the one you’re with.”

You say don’t say or even think things

but then YOU say things that make me think things

Unintentional teasing is not the most delicious torture ever

SEEMINGLY unintentional teasing is…

so I’m pretending that you HAVE to know

what you are doing to me

Unable to always CONTROL
my thoughts or feelings

I’m managing my actions
so you’ll just have to

be happy (deprived) with that

Maybe BECAUSE certain experiences are taboo

under your guidelines…

I’m catching myself

drinking YOU in with my eyes

Silently gasping at a flicker of flesh

my mind playing vivid movies of what

I could be doing to you from this angle

with you in the exact POSITION that

you’re in now

…ughhhh

YOUR body so casual and close

but feeling like an overdose

Attempting to reign in my thoughts

and being successful

for moments at a time

I can’t help loving the consolation prizes my mind

provides itself in commiseration

with my FLESH for the gifts it can’t give you

prizes SO graphic and specific
that I know exactly

how far my fingers would
reach around and down

if my hungry palms PERFECTLY cupped the exposed

sections of your sides just above your hips…

from behind

…grrrr

FOR me just the thoughts will have to do

is it my imagination or can you see us too?

Tasting you so fully with all of MY senses

except the most delicious aspect

of taste which is TOUCH.

OBVIOUSLY,

touch is what I’m CRAVING so much

even as I control the urge

tingling MY hairs stand up

but instead of goose bumps

my arms and neck are textured by

tiny

little

throbbing

clits

…fffuuuuu

Keeping things proper,

my face calm, voice light.

My LUST hidden

Saved up FOR later tonight

Life is for PLEASURE even if I

have to pleasure myself

AND like a ride is more exciting

with both peaks and valleys

now I’m thinking of your peaks and valleys

…shhht

and of riding

sigh

PASSION for anyone or anything

is exciting even if unrequited

and makes life more fascinating

I thank Unis FOR what I do get…

the things that are real

as well as the visions that are not (yet)

I find LIFE. pleasing when I am with you

as I have from the start

from a platonic overnight STAY,

to a conversation by phone or by text

I enjoy it all even realizing that NOTHING could be next

Knowing not if we will EVER talk again.

This all COULD be over, come to an end

finished between the rising of the sun

and the setting of the moon.

Whenever it is over will feel much too soon

So for now I’m letting it BE

enjoying the tidbits I get

never pushing unless prompted to

Probably BETTER for you

That I keep MY hands to myself

and just enjoy the gorgeous view

from the FRIEND. zone

~KiDDṏ